4,000 secrets about me




226) things are getting bad again.


posted 7 months ago · 0 notes

225) things have been good lately, but i feel like it wont last.


posted 11 months ago · 0 notes

224) i feel like a bother to all of my friends.


posted 1 year ago · 0 notes

223) i wanna hurt myself again. but i cant.


posted 1 year ago · 0 notes

222) odd man out. always. second choice my entire life. gotta love it. i try too hard to get people to see me for me or who i am lets them down. disappoints them. no surprise there. i need to accept that no matter, im just part of the background. it doesnt matter what i do, significant or not. im just the background. background noise. background object. i will never be someones first choice and i need to get that through my head.


posted 1 year ago · 0 notes

221) when i was suicidal and i had really low days i would go to the medicine cabinet, look for the medicine that pushed me over the edge, and hope it was there. if it was, i was going to secretly start taking it again so i would be depressed enough to kill myself and not see any other option.


posted 1 year ago · 0 notes
#confession #personal #suicidal

220) hey dad, the reason im going so far away for college is because of you.


posted 1 year ago · 0 notes

219)
Dear family,
maybe I spend a lot of time away from all of you because all you ever have to say to me are things that hurt me or you say nothing at all. Why be hurt or ignored when I can just push you all away and deal with neither?


posted 1 year ago · 0 notes

218) being single doesnt bother me. i enjoy it. theres less drama and less anxiety and im not afraid to be myself. but it wouldnt hurt to have a boyfriend. but i know i wont be able to get one, because who could ever love someone with as many issues as me?


posted 1 year ago · 0 notes

217) i often buy bracelets so that if i relapse i have a way to cover it and no one will think its weird to see me with bracelets on.


posted 1 year ago · 0 notes